Real Life

“The thing about real life is, when you do something stupid, it normally costs you. In books the heroes can make as many mistakes as they like. It doesn't matter what they do, because everything works out in the end. They'll beat the bad guys and put things right and everything ends up cool.

In real life, vacuum cleaners kill spiders. If you cross a busy road without looking, you get whacked by a car. If you fall from a tree, you break some bones.

Real life's nasty. It's cruel. It doesn't care about heroes and happy endings and the way things should be. In real life, bad things happen. People die. Fights are lost. Evil often wins.”

Darren Shan

Pain & Defeat

We can work hard to avoid pain and defeat, and the intention of this blog is not to ruin the ending, but everything will be okay either way.  Don’t try to escape the realities of the present moment.  The pain and defeat contained within the present is key to our growth in the long term.  If you take nothing from any of this, than remember this much, there is a variation between encountering defeats, and being defeated, and nothing ever truly goes away until it has taught us what we needed to know. Then we can move forward to our next step. ‘You cannot start a new chapter in a book if you keep re-reading the previous one’.

What if by aiming to shield and protect yourself from pain, you are inevitably crippling yourself from fun, from adventures, from the chance to be happy?

And what if what you are in fact missing is: now? Is making memories? Is life?

“Some chances we take are big, some are small. We take them every day. The impact of any risk you take can be great. But the point is, every chance is worth taking.” – Rudita De Asis

Blind Rage?

I think I'll stick with blind rage because otherwise I might have to admit how hurt I really am, and that would feel much more raw.

20 New Years Resolutions

1.   Learn the cup song
2.   Do the ‘Party Rock Anthem’ dance in public
3. Take a leap of faith
4.  Forgive someone who doesn’t deserve it
5. Help someone without wanting anything in return
6.  Do something that scares the shit out of me
7. Make someone laugh
8.  Learn to do push ups without my arms turning to jelly
9.   Learn the alphabet... backwards
10.  Learn to sing a song in a different language (even if I don’t understand what you’re singing about)
11.  Learn the capitals of 10 places in the world... Be able to point them out on the map
12. Invent a new word... (make it cool) ;)
13. Start to learn a new language
14. Visit somewhere I’ve never been
15.  Say “I’m happy for you..” and truly mean it
16.   Every night I go out, I must come home with my shoes!
17.  Announce in an elevator “I’m wearing new socks”, wait for the response
18.  Find the secret to eternal life
19. Make Margate a ‘happening place to be’
20. Win the lotto

"What Do You Want?"

-       -“So what?" 

-       -“So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard, and we're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like?... If it's with him, then go. I lost you once, I think I can do it again, if I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out."

-      - “What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt....”

Power?

Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn't happiness... I think that happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less... 

Happy!

Someone once told me that you have to choose what you win or lose,
You can't have everything.
Don't you take chances, you might feel the pain,
Don't you love in vain,
Cause love won't set you free.

I can't stand by the side,
And watch this life pass me by,
So unhappy,
But safe as could be.

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge, my feet run out of ground?
I gotta find my place,
I wanna hear my sound,
I don't care about all the pain in front of me,
'Cause I'm just trying to be happy.

I'm holding on tightly, I just can't let it go,
Just trying to play my role,
You slowly disappear.
But all these days, they feel like they're the same,
Just different faces, different names, get me out of here.
I can't stand by the side,
And watch this life pass me by.

So any turns that I can't see,
Like I'm a stranger on this road,
Don't say victim!
Don't say anything.

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge, my feet run out of ground?
I gotta find my place,
I wanna hear my sound,
I don't care about all the pain in front of me,
'Cause I just wanna be happy.