I Got Lost To Find My Way.....

I've worked my days away for what?
For someone to say well done?
For someone to say good job!?
Well its not for me!
Don't need no-one to hold my hand,
Through this quest of life, to tell me if I'm wrong,
Or begrudge me if I'm right!

Don't get me wrong at all, my friends,
Your knowledge is in my head,
But these stories are far too long but intriguing, my friends.
But why don't you piece what you can say?
That thing at the back of your mind,
That thing that is hacking away,
Every day and every night.

I got lost to find my way,
Still I'm standing in the dark,
With one hand holding on to night and one to day.

Its all to do with what you need,
And being what you want,
Leave it on your desk,
Just don't leave it on your bag.
I've got the view to get me home,
And the means to get me there,
It's the fire in my soul, and a lighter in my hand.
I desecrate what I've been told:
To listen to myself,
I'm the one and only girl who can make me who I am.

You tossed a coin to pick my path,
To even out my odds,
Two faced that leaves me blind,
So you can leave me in the cold.

Smooth walking: take my time to reach the canyon,
Smooth talking: the only thing that slows me down from fast thinking,
To the day I missed the way, I was fire!
Move closer: nothing matters when you're out,
You're not nothing until you let your feelings go,
That tight fisted no expression face you have,
It won't work!

I got lost to find my way,
Still I'm standing in the dark,
With the one hand holding on to night
And one to day.

The Wonders of Make-Up and Fake Tan

We girls too often hide behind our make-up, tan, contact lenses, and hair straighteners... but lets face it, without them we would be fairly lost and for once people night actually have to meet the 'real us'!

So retainers in, glasses on and tan setting we're ready to fake it...

But lets be honest... I believe the saying is "fake it 'til you make it"... so we will

Ready for a night on the town! ;)

Brick Wall

The thesis work is finally taking its toll and I now I've hit the first brick wall!!!! Can't find any motivation and the pile of work feels incredibly overwhelming!!!

And finally I find myself asking "Where from here??"... and How can I get inspiration??

So then I got an idea... glasses!!! :) They make people smarter right? So I put mine on

But apparently putting them on my head isn't enough....



So I decided to put them on my face... And POW!!!! Inspiration... The power of the glasses eh?

And finally I have the solution, and my God it feels good...

Solution to "Where from here"?

FUN WITH ANNA!!!!!

And that's exactly what I'll do for the evening! Fun evening with Anna... Which is now my motivation to get some thesis work done between now and then because I can have something little to celebrate if I manage to get thesis stuff done before that ;)

Power

With the greatest of power, comes even greater responsibilities. Why though?.. Because power is merely an illusion. It is our desire to yield our weaknesses, it exercises our ego's. The real fact is that all you truly hold when you hold power is all the rope you'll ever need to hang yourself.

"The attempt to combine wisdom, and power has only rarely been successfull, and then only for a short while"- Einstein

Secrets

Secrets.. some can boost us up, and give us strength, others will exhaust us, and rob our energy. Some of our secrets we long to share but we can't. We fear the consequences will be too dire, or maybe the secret isn't ours to tell...

I'm not mad at you. Before might I have been? Possibly.. But now if I say anything then I'm a hypocrite. Secrets... the big ones: They're hard to live with, and they're hard to keep. They're very difficult to resist digging into once we know they're there.

So how can I be disappointed in you, when I find myself struggling with the same thing?

Proud To Get A Pat On The Back

It feels like only yesterday by Dad took me to my first day of practice as a student nurse, that's why it's hard to believe that today, four years on, I am finished my practice.

Many emotions actually ran thorugh my mind today. I had thought all week how excited and happy I would be for it to be over, but as I left today I couldn't help but feel a little nostalgic.

For some today will seem no different to any other day. No, I am not quite finished my degree, or ready to graduate, but one big chapter of my life has closed. As I left the hospital today and cycled home I couldn't help but think of all the people who got me this far, whether financially or emotionally, without whom this bump in my life would have definitely been Mount Everest. So to them, and you know who you all are, Thank You <3

After receiving many lovely messages, two definitely stand out to me. Both of my parents messaged me to tell me how proud they are of me for coming this far. And for the first time in my life I am confident to say "I am proud of myself", and this is one of the most wonderful feelings in the world. In these last three and a half years I have achieved much more then I ever believed I could.

From here the only way is up, of that I am determind. This star will always shoot for the moon, and if I fail then I will still be proud to say I was a shooting star, not just one that twinkles and dwindles out.

"How often in life we complete a task that was beyond the capability of the person we were when we started it"- Robert Brault

The Crowd

Have you ever felt at home in a crowd? Like you were part of something bigger? And you felt this amazing energy that happens when people come together. How despite the superficial differences, you know that deep down inside we're all the same. We have the same secret needs, and the same wild dreams. We walk around thinking our secret joy, or secret pain, is so unique, when really we all just want the same things: to be happy... to be safe... to be loved...